Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Being Light

I’ve been out of the creative abyss a few days now but I’m still feeling a bit disoriented. It’s like I’m no longer deep in the abyss but I’m also not back on writing land yet. But I’m in no hurry. I’m enjoying being in limbo. There is a certain kind of lightness in limbo land that made me smile. I've been wearing dresses these last few days. (I'm usually a jeans woman!) And I remembered that I had my permission plus everything that I needed to be a writer or maybe even an artist ...

P.S. I got my car back over the weekend. :)


Holly said...

Whoot! To the wheels...

One time when I was stuck badly in my life, my spiritual advisor challenged me to remove every lick of jewelry off my body and leave it off for 10 days. I can't begin to tell you how uncomfortable that made me, like being naked in a mall at high noon.

At any rate, as the days dripped by eventually I became at peace with it...and while I don't know that anyone else really wondered about it, it did give me a space to 'see' myself differently. Did I get unstuck? I suppose by virtue of viewing myself differently, yes.

Could I leep tall buildings in a single bound? Nope. But, even though I can't name what shifted, there was something there.

I think, without having to be told, you did the very same thing in your choice to wear dresses instead of your usual armor.

How does it feel? What's different?

Good for you for doing this!

Veena said...

I feel a lovely peacefulness in this latest post, Hybrid J. Reading it is like swimming in a cool lake.

judiPatootie said...

Veena, that is a lovely description!!

Dresses? I dont even own one anymore.. sad state of existence.

sophie said...

You do sound very peaceful! Don't put pressure on yourself, just enjoy this and then eventually you'll just start writing. You won't be able to help yourself!

Also, my Mum commented a few weeks ago that I've become much more of a dress person in the last few years. I hadn't thought about it, but she's right, I used to only wear dresses or skirts when I had to and now I love them. I wonder what it is?

Leone said...

Filling the well as Julia Cameron would say. I haven't worn a skirt or dress for years, it would be nice to feel feminine again. I can imagine it makes you feel very different from wearing jeans, I hope it inspires you. Take care.

Caroline said...

Enjoy this time...don't hurry or worry...everything will fall into place. :)

Hybrid J said...

Hi Holly,

Love your comments. I haven't thought about what wearing dress mean. Good question! :)

Hi Veena,

Glad that my very short post brought you a swimming pool. And thanks for dropping by! :)

Hi Judi,

Don't own a dress ... no worries ... pick a big piece of beautiful fabric and wrap around your waist as a sarong and there you go ... :)

Hi Sophie,

Long time no see and glad to have you here again. Hmmm ... it seems like there is some significance with the "dress". A good topic to write up a post. :)

Hi Leone,

You're right - I think I'm filling up this little well of mine. Wearing a dress does make me feel more like a woman. I sure walk differently. You too, give it a try. ;)

And Caroline,

Thank you for being such a wonderful, loving and caring fellow creatives. It's always a delight to have you here! ;)

Pamela said...

I, too, feel a peacefulness, a sense of acceptance of the moment, in your post. It's as if you are saying, "Ok, I've made it through a hurdle and know I'm going to be okay. I can ride along for the rest of this journey and am open to new discoveries along the way." Please know that you have many friendly folk holding your hands on this journey. We support you and know that you are destined for wonderful things!


Kavindra said...

First a dress, now the small print of "maybe even an artist" ... who knows where you're gonna end up!

And ya didn't even need your car to get going ;)

laughingwolf said...

grats on getting the car back... i have yet to take mine in... maybe next week

as for writing, no rush :)

Hybrid J said...

Hi Pamela,

Thank you for the loving words and to remind me that I have friends who believe in me. :)

Hi Kavindra,

Ooooh, you got me there ... the small print. I think I'm up to no good, hahaha! ;)

And Laugingwolf,

What a surprise to have you here! Missed you buddy ... and also thanks for the tip on writing. :)

Barbara said...

Dear Hybrid J,
I left a comment for you back on your July 31 post. Oops! I linked to it through mine. I'm glad you're feeling a little better. Thanks for the comment on my post about it. So funny we're on the same page, huh? Hang in there. You'll get through this.
Best, Barbara

Hybrid J said...

Thanks Barbara for the loving words ... :)

miruspeg said...

What a lovely peaceful post.
It is like you have 'seen the light'.
AND wearing dresses....OMG.
I am very happy that you are happy Hybrid.
Lots of love